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16. Jungle Love

The sadness deep inside me was gone in a second. I may not be that great,
but I certainly was special. I had tried hard to fit into society, please
everyone, but I could not, because I was never meant to please anyone but
myself. I made my own choices. I was a free person. My eyes were glowing
like hundred-watt bulbs and all the grief and pain inside me melted away.
Being with your soulmate is therapeutic and it heals your deepest wounds.
Virat had the same alluring effect on me.
‘Thank you.’
‘Why? I mean it, you are wild, reckless and anything but helpless. I
am dreaded by the most dangerous men and here you control me like a
puppy. Because you see, I am a shadow myself. Sharing myself is amongst
the most uncomfortable things for me. But with you, it comes naturally. Your
spirits match my demons perfectly,’ he said with dreamy eyes.
The earth beneath me turned into a raging inferno and consumed me
at once.
I pulled him towards me by his neck and touched my cheeks against
his. We kissed like Armageddon was heading straight to us and this would
be our last night. The explosive passion and pain hidden deep inside our
souls erupted into that one kiss. We kissed for several long minutes, before
he pushed me away, breathing heavily.
His eyes were apologizing, and he said, ‘No! Not again. I cannot.’
But it meant nothing to me, I pulled him close to me again and
started kissing his neck, biting his nose, ears, teasing him and tracing his
face with my lips. He stepped back a little and clenched his fists. My senses
were long gone and the longing inside me was surfacing again and again. I
put my arms around his waist and pulled him towards my bosom, tilting my
head backwards.
There! The boundaries were shattered and he lost his senses too. His
torrid kisses trailed down my flesh deliberately.
He was scared, scared to love me and lose me again.
He knew what it was like to carry around a love so heavy. He knew
what it was like to love and be lost forever, never to meet again.
Lovemaking lets you know things about a man which you would
never know ordinarily, and I could make out that he was terrified. He did not