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That’s Crazy

enemy. All I could see was my life and all that I knew was in those

boxes.

Those boxes represented some of my deepest pains; I had so

many emotions associated with those boxes. Clearing the boxes was

like opening a scab; I had no choice but to go through the boxes.
There were personnel records with former employees’ social security
numbers that had to be shredded.

I found copies of the 10 depositions that were taken because of

the sexual harassment lawsuit. I had both Mama and Daddy’s financial
records; I was the power of attorney for both of them. I had all the

stuff from the ugly divorce and so many pictures that flooded me with
the ugly memories. Shredding became my therapy. The more I

shredded, the better I felt. At the same time, I was seeing how CRAZY
had taken over my life and how I had fought to take back control.

I realize that I never had the chance to sit back and see how
successful I had become; I had built wealth in a short period. In the

year before closing the business, the last profit and loss statement of
the business showed the company had made 6 million dollars in sales.

I had to transfer 7 million dollars in contracts to another firm and I

think that was the hardest part because it was not like we did not have
a backlog of revenue. We just had no operating cash. Everything was
going to attorneys; $125,000 for fees.

For two years, I was dealing with 5 attorneys at once. The

corporate attorney who was dealing with Jerome’ crazy issues, the

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