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losses is that each time I lost something I thought was of value, He

was blessing me in ways that I could not see at the time or in those
moments.

Today, I can see the value of my journey, the reason why I had to

go through what I did. God blessed me to be able to bless others by
sharing my journey of successfully building a $15 million business only
to see it destroyed by something I thought was evil. But as the old

folks say, “What the devil meant for evil, God meant for HIS good.”

Don’t get me wrong, at the time, I was so angry at God. I could
not understand why I had to lose so much, especially all at the same

time. There was so much pain and tears, I cried for five years straight,
the pain was so overwhelming. My heart ached every day and the

weight of it was so heavy.

I made it through because of the circle of wisdom sisters God

placed in my life; it was the only way I made it. Oh, they were the ones
“Who carried me, who cried with me and for me, who laughed with

me, and who prayed for me and with me,” when I could barely get out
of bed each day. The nights were my darkest hours.

During those days, I had to suppress so much inside and maintain
the “Face” during business hours, then go home every day to CRAZY

Leroy’s drinking. I had nowhere to escape. I felt so much pressure.

There were so many people depending on me; with close to 40
employees who had families that depended on me for their paychecks.

As the business began to fall, I remember, for three years, my days

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