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Self-Care

all and then wiping your sticky hands and face when you’re all done.
I long to walk into your room, see you standing in your crib, smiling
at me in the morning. I long to walk into your room, see you sleeping
peacefully in your footie pajamas. I long to read stories to you and sing
songs with you. I long to play with you and teach you new things. I
long to tell you that I love you and hold you while I say it.

I’ve loved you for a long time, Garren. Longer than the 16 months
and 18 days since you were here. And longer than the two full years
since I learned that you were joining our family. My heart has always
loved you, Garren. And it always, always will.

It’s been two years of knowing you, and already a lifetime of loving
you.

I miss you so much.

Love,
Mommy

—Andrea, mother of Garren James

I love what this couple did for their son. The reason I shared
these letters with you is that I hope they emphasize the impor-
tance of communicating the specifics and details of your sto-
ry. Whether you express your feelings on paper, in person, or
through a creative modality, it may bring some beautiful and
painful memories, and you may find the process a part of your
self-care journey.

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