Page 36 - Fallen Thoughts

Contradiction

And here I stand broken and alone

And here I stand surrounded with love
All at the same time I stand

Hollow, like the husk of a bee hive

Overflowing, like a flooding lake
Emotions rise and fall like my chest that I so often hate to look at

I am attached to a string that pulls at my heart

First softly letting its presence known
Then again but as a chain ripping my love out

I am like a wave, cursed to slide against the coarse sand
Push a little further each time, friction fighting against me

But am never able to join you on your picnic blanket so far away

I am a spider caught in its own web
An embarrassment to the masses

Not worth the oxygen it breathes

My demon holds my hand and lies with its comfort
It tells me the pain will help distract me from the world

But smiles and laughs as I continue to bleed out

I am sick and scared
I am confident and strong

I am not okay anymore