Page 39 - Fallen Thoughts
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Internalized
Why can’t I just say it...
Why do the words burn in my throat...
Why can’t I just be who I want to be...
Why am I afraid to show the world my colours...
Would this world keep me as I am, or shut me out and label me as something to be
ashamed of? Should I just hold my tongue and deal with the comments that hurt
me and my friends? How would they react when the thing they were humiliating
was me all along?
I can feel their eyes on my back…
I can feel their words creep up my spine…
I can feel their hate, wrecking balls in my brain…
I can feel my life falling apart if I ever tried to live my truth…
Where would I even go? I know how things will turn out if I ever did portray
myself the way I'm destined to be. Hell, I was one of the people I'm afraid of years
ago. I dream of a life away from this place and be able to isolate myself from the
people I know.
But can I make it another year… .
