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capabilities. He had enough composure to ask – “OK Ben,

what do I have to do to get a rating of exceeds
expectations.” My thought process immediately shifted
to things like “walk on water, or raise the dead” but

frankly, all I could do was to look like a “deer in the
headlights” and I don’t think I ever gave him a rational
answer to his question.

Lou had no concern getting a zero pay raise (he did not
get zero), he was just horrified at the stench of having to

live with a written record of “meeting expectations.”
Nothing I could say or do at that juncture seemed to help,

unless, of course, I changed our rating — which did not
occur.

FEW STORIES TO BE TOLD

There are few stories that can be told without getting into
trouble. From our formation of S/CSA in 1992 to my

retirement in 1997 a whole bunch of stuff happened that
cannot be discussed, and for that, I have no apology. It’s
just the way things were and still are.