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Thorn In The Heart

in empty, and you do not cry of afraid for life that had so many
traps and defrauds. We will be happy and together forever.
No...! No...! No...! A thousand times I will say no...! I do not
want you to follow me. I ready left you alone with the sobbing
and cry in the world of silent at night...! I ready to put your life
in the sorrow of hope and to wait for me...! Also, I had broken
my promise that I had spoken out at the moment of happiness at
the wedding time. How I can promise you in another world that I
did not know...!

My-Trinh, my lovely wife...!

Few years I went with the war by my empty idea and
nothing more to choose. My eyes opened wide in the darkness to
find my enemy, at the same time my ears heard the echo of the
crying in the air, while the bombs and cannon shells were
exploding. I saw the pool of blood on the rice field, looked at the
dead bodies in the village while flame and smoke were rising in
the air. Everything had destroyed in the war even our souls...!

I knew that I had broken my promise that I will always be
beside you to help you, give my love to you and our child, but I
could not perform it...! I was a soldier, closed with the war and
death that you were afraid for on your life.

My-Trinh. What do you do now? Were you praying for my
safety or fearing for my death? Were you teaching our children
on the math problem or crying to remember me?

Love, I carried it in my heart, kissed it by my hot lips and
held it on my arms, but I had nothing more to choose to leave
you away. Instead, I hold a gun and shot at Vietnamese that I
called my enemies or Vietminh to save my life. Love, I sawed it
in your eyes and felt it was rolling in your soul but I could not
touch it, because you were my dream...! Yes, only in my
dream...!

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