Page 10 - MRPC Souvenir Bodhon 2018

INFIDELITY
Sangeeta Sen (Flat - 11/7A)

I am in love. Yes, I am very much in love. I don't care that I am a married woman with a
child. I do fulfill all my duties both as a mother and also as a wife. However, till date my love
life has not disturbed my family life. Life is not simple, in my case it is extremely complicated.
I can't live without Amit, because I am an infidel.

Mine is an arranged marriage. I have all the material things in my possession that a woman
can ask for. Even my husband Raj is very caring, understanding and also a doting father. Raj
is always there to support me. He has been there with me in all situations for the last 3 years.
Any woman would love to get a husband like Raj. But in spite of having everything in my life,
I can't live without Amit, because I am an infidel.

Raj is mostly doing night shifts these days. So it's quite easy for me to meet Amit or to have a
late night conversation with him. Once I put my baby to sleep, I am all Amit's. Nowadays he
says that he is very busy so he can't find time to come and meet me, but his calls do come
everyday after midnight. Whenever I am speaking to him, I can still feel the adrenaline rush.
After all he is my man, I can't live without Amit, because I am infidel.
It's been months that I haven't met Amit. I want to meet him now. I am desperate. Just want
to be in his arms and forget everything. Want to touch and feel him. I am dying for him. After
all we are childhood sweethearts, hence can't stay apart for long. I called him up and he said
that he is coming tonight. He wants me to look gorgeous, so that when he comes today he
would see the best of me. As such we didn't go out for ages. Today I am not going to leave
him early, after all I have to say so many things to him. It's just evening now, can't wait to see
Amit. I can't live without Amit, because I am an infidel.

My baby is sleeping. I have already finished my shower and is now draping that lovely red
Saree which Amit gifted me long time back. I am also wearing matching junk jewelries and a
fancy bindi. My long hair is all open, I can feel the smell of my intoxicating perfume that I
have sprayed not only on myself but inside the room as well. I can't tell how happy and
excited I am today, I am going to meet the love of my life after such a long time. I will not
leave him today. I wish he could stay with me forever. OMG!! I think someone is there on the
door. This has to be Amit. My Amit. Please wait there dear, I am just coming. I can't live
without you Amit, because I am infidel.
The following morning I woke up on the hospital bed. Raj was sitting beside me stroking my
hair, asking me whether I was okay or not. For few minutes I was not aware why I was there
in the hospital? What the hell has gone wrong with me? When I asked Raj, he said that last
night he came home early and saw me behaving weirdly. When he asked me about my
behavior, he said I pushed him aside on the stairs shouting that I wanted to meet Amit as he
was waiting outside. My husband knew about my past. He tried to console me and tried to
explain what actually had happened with Amit before our wedding. After hearing everything
he said that I started crying uncontrollably and became unconscious. He got a panic attack
and out of fear he brought me to this nearby hospital. Doctors said I need utmost care and
complete bed rest for the next few days. How can I explain that though Amit is not alive
anymore, I can still feel him, I can still hear his voice, I can still see him, I can do anything to
meet him or to be with him forever. What will I do? I love him a lot. I can't stay without Amit,
because I am infidel.