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Never Die with the Music in You

Due to having a non-standard life with abnormal experiences, which might be
better known as a dysfunctional life, there are numerous misunderstood and

unknown facts about me. I have, therefore, elected to write about my life and these
experiences to clarify them in people’s minds, to allow myself to finally vent and
then to possibly forget the details.

To explain the negatives and positives of my life’s journey, I have identified the
circumstances, events, opportunities and the individuals involved. Hopefully, by

expressing my thoughts, impressions, feelings and emotions, I will receive the
therapeutic cleansing I desire. Naming these people, incidents and events will be
the reward in my journey.

I truly believe I have been on a spiritual journey in a human body experience. My
life has been like a windshield wiper swishing from one side to the other.

From the earliest memories of my abnormal childhood, I have had a burning desire

to be an individual reasonably independent of others. Somehow, I felt I was a good
person with a real purpose and genuine value who did not really need approval
from others. I just wanted to be a good and decent person while growing up and
questioning life. I have always wanted to be accepted – not necessarily popular –
just accepted.

While growing up, I’d say that I was a misfit. However, in many circumstances, I

felt it was okay to be a misfit because I did not desire to fit in with the people,
lifestyles and foul language used in my home and environment. Overall, in most
circumstances, I have had a mind that is open to almost everything, but early on, I
did not really attach to anything or anyone. I do not recall being truly loved by
anyone until I got married.

I have spent many years being comfortable with the attitude that “everything and
anything is possible.” Others’ opinions do not offend me. I saw early on that
progress was possible only if things changed and that I was to be the author of
those changes.

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