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You turn your lens toward your own life in Where’s My
Happy Ending? You open your description of WMHE?,
“ A friend once said that everyone has their own tragedy... this is
mine.”
What was your tragedy? And how did your tragedy trans-
form your work?
My tragedy is how difficult it was for my wife and I to start our
family. The time was full of anguish, self-doubt, anger, and resent-
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with children, and, for me, often towards myself. Because it took so
long to have what others have so naturally, the failure feels tragic graphs are precious objects, and finding new ways to express the
and totally out of control, and I think you can’t help but question totality of what I experienced internally.
almost everything about yourself and your partner. So, as much as Then, after working for several years with one doctor, when I re-
you try to relax and forget about not getting pregnant, it’s impos- ally thought it would never happen, he discovered that our prob-
sible because the focus and experience has become all consuming. lem could be fixed with a simple and standard IVF medication. We
As you said, this tragedy transformed my work and life immensely. now have a beautiful son, Theodore, who is 17 months old and a
I began to take more risks with my images, to stop caring if photo- constant joy in our lives. I wish that my wife and I didn’t have this

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