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Interview with Addiction – Saint Louis Style

Street Beat

LOMM: Thank you for being here and speaking with us; LOMM: You’re saying “we”, what does that mean?
your words are important. Please tell us about you, the Murfee: Man, addicts, dealers, the drug culture, we are
addiction, about your life? crew in this country. Society pegs us man. When I say we

Murfee: I am a drug addict and I smoke and I drink every or us, I mean my drug friends. We are a culture, we help
day, have for years. My constant thought is looking forward each other get from day to day. Wise the fuck up, drugs are
to the next high as this one wears off. An alcoholic will steal a business man, above and in the underground. Dealers
your last beer and smokes, then deny it. I will steal your last are street pharmacists, psychiatrists. Serious sick bastards,
beer, smokes, your money, then I will turn-a-round help you they own us, we admit that, they know it, we know it, it’s a
go look for it. Hey, tough game, I am a drug addict and my part of addiction. Special love. Some things you just over-
high is where I am. Been to rehab, been to jail, AA, been look. Addicts can be productive, survive to help others but
to church, done it. Hey I can operate fine, mostly. Drugs, many don’t, they end up broke, in jail, rehab or dead. Like I
booze are cheap for a reason now-a-days, that’s good for said we are a community and dealers have a special place
me and good for other people. At these prices, you don’t in our world and in the next world. And dealers definitely
con as much. I have a job, I got my own home, I have a have a special place in hell if there is one.
core group that will take care of me, if or when I die, at this
age. I am a result of my world. Dig it.

LOMM: What age did you start using drugs?
Murfee: When I started having sex with a neighbor
around 14, I got access to drugs and alcohol. She was nice,
it was nice when it started. It was the beginning of me play-
ing music with my friends. You get some attention, you’re
growing, you’re learning and you don’t want to let it go.
I love it. People are going to do, we all know that is true.
Weed is good, everybody gets high, the beer was good
too. My biggest fear was taking anything home and getting
caught, my old man beat me.

LOMM: Did music play a role in your becoming an
addict? Photo credits LOMM - Murfee - STL
Murfee: No. No. No. Music is what saved me man. I’ve LOMM: What is a regular day like with your friends, your
had an outlet for my music since I was a teenager. Man, I family, worried about your health?
have given up chicks and jobs for my music. Not laying off
on others, but really it is the people around you that save Murfee: My buddy, had an excellent job, making a dam
you or kill you. Some of my friends are addicts, a couple good salary, savings, benefits, the people at his company
are small time dealers. We all love getting high, that’s the loved him. His greedy old drug dealer saw he was making
times. When we needed something back in the day, you it good. Good money. His old dealer got him using again.
could head out to a gay bar make a quick 50 and move What an asshole. Big boy (dealer) broke his ass. Dude (my
on, go buy what you need. In the meantime, we play some buddy) went deep street bitch broke. He did not pay his bills
kick ass music, develop our craft, strengthen our skills and or rent for months, collectors calling 24/7, even at work up
book a few gigs. Hey man we are people, we pay our to 6-8 times a day. Bad, bad. Lost almost everything lying,
debts to society and we move on to the next whatever. We cheating, stealing for the next high, lie, cheat and steal.
work, we love, we live, we’re happy and we’re addicts. His drug dealer used him like his personal ATM. My dude
Human. stopped shaving, hygiene got bad, you could smell him,
sad shit man. Cashed in his life savings to just breath, he
changed, he ran and is still running.

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