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Then I let my mind go and I sort of came up with this other combination picture. This was
the one where the woman was watching the little girl through the glass as she watched the
city burn.

Then it clicked that these two characters were actually the same person. I had the name of
her and the basic story outline and what the point of it would be, but I tend to kinda let
things write themselves.
The way it works for me is a have some ideas for characters or places or even storylines just
so as I know where im trying to get in the end. Then everything tends to just appear on the
page before I even realise ive written it. Now, I don't know if that's universally the best way

to write but it has served me well in the past. A lot of people say that before you write, you
should know your characters inside out and I agree that probably is a good way to write.
For some. But not for me. If you know just the basics of your character (name, age and so
forth) then I find it a more natural process.

I'm having a real problem with my tenses and the POV shift between then and now, but
those sort of things have always been a problem. Its not a major downfall but its just these
niggly little things that piss me off. Now, because ive finished uni for the year, I'm gonna get
my brother to read it thru to see where I can pick up my mistakes.

I've written way more than 5000 words so im just gone take the first 6500 and work on
them. There are some bits I want to write again and I can see I need to do some editing. I
try not to write the things that I don't need and certainly not this early on but sometimes I
can't help it. So I've taught myself to be brutal with the edit. I mean, that's what its for right
- to get rid of all the crap?

I've got some things in there by young Jess, things that a 9 year old might think but
definitely wouldn't say. I know 9 year olds and I know how they speak and act, but I guess I
can excuse it as older Jess is a little more analytical in retrospect, and that she doesn't

remember the esact words. Except that doesn't really wash with me either so I'll see if I can
do anything with it.

Read a couple of books recently, like how to write manuals, they were, for wont of a better
word, shite. Already read Steven King's On Writing as I totally respect him and everything
he writes, but not Buick8, so that was quite good. But if you need someone to teach you
how to write, it's pretty much a lost battle. I read what I want to read and that tells me
everything I need to know.

God, why do we have to do these stupid bloody writers notes to pass. I can't work like this
and the things don't even help ! I use my journal to ramble and sort my head out - this just
pisses me off and deducts from valuable writing and gaming time.