Page 59 - Thanimai Siragugal
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No, I Wasn't Meant to Love and Be Loved
English Translation jkpo; nkhopg;ngah;g;G czh; nkhopT
No, I wasn't meant to love and be ehd; fhjypffNth fhjypf;fg;glNth vd; thh;g;gpy; fhjYkpy;iy
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loved. cUthf;fgl;ltdpy;iy fhjyDkpy;iy
If I'd lived longer, I would have vd; tho;T ePz;bUe;jhy; vd; vd; tho;tida fhj;jpUgG
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waited longer. fhj;jpUj;jYk; ePz;bUf;Fk; ePsf;$Lk;
Knowing you are faithless keeps ePq;fs; ek;gpf;ifaw;wtnud;gjhy; cd; JNuhf rhj;jpaq;fs; vid
me alive and hungry. ehd; grpAld; capNuhbUf;fpNwd;. caph;;g;GlDk; grpAlDk;
Knowing you faithful would kill cq;fs; ek;gpf;if vd;id itj;jpUf;fpwJ.
me with joy. kfpo;r;rpAld; nfhs;Sk; vd;gij cd; tp];thrk; vid
Delicate are you, and your vows ehd; mwpNtd;. re;Njhrj;jhNyNa nfhy;Yk;
are delicate, too, ePq;fs; kpUJthdth;fs; cq;fs; cidnaj;j cd; rgjq;fSk;
so easily do they break. rgjq;fSk; kpUJthdit kpUJthdit
You are a laconic marksman. Mjypd; mit Rygkhf cile;J Rygkhf rpija ty;yit
You leave me not dead but NghfpwJ. eP rpf;fd nrhw;Fwpj; jtwhjts;
perpetually dying. ePq;fs; Jy;ypakhf Fwpg;ghh;gjpy; vid nkhj;jkhf rhf tplhky;
I want my friends to heal me, Njh;e;jth;. epj;jk; caph; gwpf;fpwha;
succour me. vd;id rLjpapy; rhf tplhky; vd; ez;gh;fs; vid Mw;Wth;> cjtp
nra;th
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Instead, I get analysis. nrj;Jf; nfhz;Nl ,Uffr; nra;tPh;. khwhf ehd; Ma;e;jwpa Kay;Ntd;
Conflagrations that would make vd; ez;gh;fs; vd;id Mw;wpl> ghiwfis ,sf;fp ,uj;jk; tba
stones drip blood vdf;F cjtpl tpUk;GfpNwd;. nra;Ak; jPg;gpok;Gfs;
are campfires compared to my mjw;F gjpyhf ehd; gFg;gha vd; Ntjidf;F Kd; Xh ,uTwff
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anguish? KidfpNwd;. fdyhfpLk.;
ghiwfis ,sf;fp ,uj;jk; tba
Two-headed, inescapable anguish! nra;Ak; jPg;gpok;Gfs; tpLjiyapyh ,Ujiy Ntjid
Love's anguish or the anguish of vd; Ntjidia xg;gpl;lhy; ,J
time. rhjhuz Kfhk; neUg;ghFk; fhjypd; Ntjidah ,y;iy
Another dark, severing, ,Ujiy nfhz;lJ ,e;j jggpf;f fhyj;jpd; Ntjidah.
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incommunicable night. Kbah Ntjid NkYk; xh; thh;j;ijfSf;F rpffh
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Death would be fine, if I only died fhjypd; Ntjid my;yJ fhyj;jpd; ,Us;R+o; ,uT
once. Ntjid. ,wg;Gk; ed;Nw xh;Kiw khpj;jhy ;
I would have liked a solitary death, gfpu Kbah ,d;ndhU ,Us; Ro;e;J Mlk;gu rlq;fw;w jdpikr;rhT
not this lavish funeral, this grave Jz;lhlg;gLk; ,uT. jifrhy; ngUik
anyone can visit. xUKiwjhndd;why; kuzk; ahUk; tUk; ,Wjpf;Fop.
You are mystical, Ghalib, and, ed;ikNa. mofha; NgRk; tprpj;jpud; eP fhypg ;
also, you speak beautifully. jdpahf kuzpf;f tpUk;GfpNwd;. JwtpNah ,y;iy epjk; kjp
Are you a saint, or just drunk as ,e;j Mlk;gu Jwg;gtNdh kJtpy;
usual? jfdrk;gujhakpy;yhky>; ,J ahUk;
tu$ba kahdk;.
eP xU tprpj;jpud; fhypg;> mofhfTk;
NgRfpwha. ;
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eP xU Jwtpah? ,y;iy tof;fk;
Nghy; Fbj;jpUf;fpwhah?
- Mirza Ghalib, kPh;rh fhypg ;
