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so important piece in this game and the responsibility overwhelms me. How could I live
knowing that the obtainment something that is beautiful for the Third Reich and the Aryan
Race is in my hands? I, as any Comrade and more being Officer , am disposed to die for our
badge if it is disposed in that way but, from now on, I’d not desire to live with the anguish to
fail before time, to not reach to comply. Do you understand Tarstein? The time that rests for
the denoument. If there is something so important to do I’d wish to realize it as soon as
possible.

–Well you must have patience! –Tarstein affirmed, almost screaming–. Even if one
minute or a century is resting you musn’t demonstrate any alteration neither any improper
behaviour of the Kshatrya.

Remember it, you are a Knight, a Warrior Monk, you must behave in consequence.
Soon you’ll be Initiated and then you will comply your Destiny.

I assented disturbed for the deserved reprimand that I received from Tarstein. But that
day we didn’t speak more about the matter.

Chapter XX

Well, neffe –said Uncle Kurt after the dinner, with his eyes strangly bright– we are
getting near to the most important part of my life, when I received the Initiation and such
insolit mission was entrusted to me, that operation that Tarstein valorized too much and that
still results incomprehensible to me.

–In that time, with Tarstein as instructor, I learnt a lot. He seemed to know it all and I
used to feel ashamed because, after many years in the NAPOLA, I was just capable to follow hin
attentively in his expositions but I felt incompetent to complete anything he said by my own.
Nevertheless Tarstein consoled me at his paradoxical way:

–Don’t worry Kurt, it is just confusion, blood impurity. But you go faster than you
think. You’ll know it all soon, you will wake up and, then, if you want, you could dominate so
much Science as the greatest Wise man. Of course that our Hyperborean Science is a damn

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