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Sometimes I find it so difficult to govern my life. This week has been hard to navigate without my Joyselyn. Asking

myself what she would suggest I do with this or that. So many memories come to mind when viewing her closet and its
content. What would you have me do with this baby? WOW! I forgot about that. Do you remember when we; that was
a fun day for us. I will forever miss more days like them. Oh, how I hope, wish, and pray you were now beside me.

How I long for your whispering in my ear. Guiding me on with what to do next and telling me you love me. Fanaticized
months with you still living with me. Missing you to have and hold brings me to awaken nightmares that you are no

longer there for such pleasures. I know my Joyselyn is forever gone from this life, but my heart and mind are still so full
of her. That will never be a miss.

Nov. 13, 2020

I am standing in this closet of Joyselyn’s, inhaling deep in hopes of just one little lingering scent of her being.

Memories flooded my mind, my heart aching to be filled again with the life and love of my Joyselyn. A challenging time

for me. What a rush of thoughts, emotions that weaken; knees want to give out from under me—all her garments like
a treasure. Seeing life as she displayed them. Remembered moments, events, places, and how she felt in my arms

while wearing them. How beautiful, radiant, and full of life she is. How I love being hers, how I love being at her side.
Even now, I treasure the thought. I can only close my eyes and pretend.

Nov. 14, 2020

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