Page 244 - Reason To Sing by Kelita Haverland

Reason To Sing

“Before we discuss anything about your trip, I want to read
something I put together this morning.”
Oh gosh, what the heck is he going to say? Is he so nervous
to tell me it’s over that he has to read it?
“I have had a lot of time to think while you’ve been in
Nashville. There are some things I think you ought to hear
from me.”
Now my throat is one huge lump. Breathe Kelita, just
breathe. He never even let me explain. Anything. There’s so
much I need to say. Oh God, please don’t let this be the end of
us. I know what I did was just so wrong. But I needed to know.
I really did!
As I look at his beautiful face, I can’t help but think what a
horrible mistake I made with Hudson. How could I have been
so naïve to think he could have changed. To think that MY
feelings for him could have changed so dramatically after all
he put me through. Oh, Kelita! You foolish girl.
“I suppose you’re wondering what this is all about?”
I cannot find a single word. All the words I thought I
wanted to say are stuck in my constricted throat. The only
thing I can do is nod.
He continues. “I thought it was important for me to let you
know exactly what I think about our relationship.”
Oh, dear God, please protect my heart right now. Please
God, please!
He carefully unfolds the tiny piece of paper and begins to
read. I brace myself for the worst.
“Well, first of all, I love that we share the same sense of
humour. And we can be crazy together.” I stare in silence. Where
is he going with this? “We have a lot of common interests
like exercise and eating healthy. We love to create music and
perform together.” Yes. Yes, we do. And …? “We share many

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