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Chapter Forty-One

of the same goals. We’re not afraid of adventure and we love to
travel. And do a whole lot more. We love meeting new people.”
He is so good at meeting strangers. “We both would like a
family someday.” My heart is melting now. I’m trying to hold
back but tears are trickling. “We dream of living by the ocean.
We both believe something greater has brought us together.”
I can’t control the tears any longer. I start to sob, gently.
Gord moves closer to me on the couch and takes my hand. He
puts the piece of paper down and looks directly into my eyes.
“And Kelita - we love each other.”
Oh God, yes! I put my arms around his neck and give him
a huge hug. Oh, how I welcome this man’s touch.
My voice is soft and a little shaky when the words finally
come out. “Gord, I can’t even begin to ...”
“Hold on, I’m not quite finished yet.” He takes a deep
breath and stares boldly into my eyes. Is this it? Is this when I
get the BUT? The reason why we can’t be together. In spite of
all those reasons we should be together. Is this it?
“Although there are many great things about us, we have to
look at the reality too.”
I nod without much conviction. “Yes, of course we do. I
totally agree.”
“You’re still married to Hudson.”
My heart sinks. Oh God, I know. How could I think
Nashville could just be swept under the rug?
“And, at this point, I’m not sure if you still love him. In any
case you guys still have a lot of things you need to work out,
whether I’m in the picture or not.”
I wait for Gord to offer more negatives. He stops talking.
The air is thick with the truth.
I compose myself and brush the tears from my cheeks. I
wish I had a tissue but I don’t, so I just use my sleeve. I sit up

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