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Reason To Sing

What’s going to happen now? I’m just sick. Gord won’t
want anything to do with me. Why would he? How could I
even blame him?
I draw the comforter around my head and curl up into a
ball of mush. I replay the night’s events so many times I finally
cry myself to sleep. If there was any warped or unrealistic hope
for my marriage it is most certainly gone. Forever. Hudson will
never change and I will never again put up with his bullying.
There will be no going back.
The morning sun bursts through the shattered window,
waking me to a new life and a very large headache. My eyes
are puffy from all the crying and my nerves are raw as bloody
meat. I dress and pack quickly, dreading the drive to the airport.
But it is dysfunctional business as usual. The silence between
Hudson and me is welcome. No words of apology. No words
of remorse or shame or even hostility. There is simply nothing
left to say. Except good-bye.

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