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Chapter Forty-Seven

had to. Did he know about them? One time he called me,
both of us wondering where our spouses were. Our guts were
telling us something then. And what about the band they both
played in? Did those guys know all this time? Or were they just
suspicious? Did other people in the music industry know? Was
I just poor little ignorant Kelita, at home changing diapers and
baking cookies while her husband made a public mockery of
his marriage?
There are just so many questions. But really, what the heck
does it even matter? What’s been done has been done. And it’s
time to face the music. Maybe not the whole song but at least
the intro.
I stumble into the kitchen just as I hear Gord coming up
the stairs. He has obviously spent the night downstairs in the
spare room. I sit quietly at the kitchen table as he walks in,
looking frightful. His hair is disheveled and he’s as pale as a
ghost. I hide a tiny smile. I’m glad he is looking horrid. It’s
good to know he’s finally feeling something, maybe even some
guilt. I keep wondering if it was she who wanted to come clean.
After all, she is a Christian now. Maybe he had no choice in the
matter? I honestly wouldn’t doubt it. I don’t think he’s telling
me the whole story. How can I believe anything he tells me
anymore.
He sits across from me and looks into my eyes. His are puffy
and rimmed with red. I don’t care. There will be no sympathy
for his pain. None. My voice is cold and emotionless. “I have
to get out of here. I’m taking the train to Judy’s. You’re going
to have to look after Keldon. I just can’t take care of him right
now.”
A part of me wants to scream, “Now YOU can try being
a father for a while instead of an adulterous bastard!” But
Keldon is awake so I need to remain in control. I feel horrible

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