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Chapter Forty-Seven

me for being unfaithful to my first husband? Or maybe He
is punishing me for being unfaithful to Gord WITH my first
husband?
My train is on time and I head to the back of the last car. I
want to be as alone as possible. The sun streaming in on my face
comforts me as I pull out my Bible. For the next four hours all I
do is read. It’s instinctive. I honestly don’t know what else to do
with my mind and I’m frantic to glean any kind of comfort to
soothe this death-like anguish. I read the scriptures. So many
of them speak to me.

“But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not
be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.”
Isaiah 40:31 (KJV)

“From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is
overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”
Psalm 61:2 (KJV)

Even in all of this turmoil, I do sense God is near. He is the
only thing giving me strength right now.
The rhythmic sound of the train diminishes as it makes
its way into the station. I am finally in Ottawa. Away from
Toronto, away from Gord. As I stand to gather my things, I
can see Judy through the small crowd, also waiting. My heart
is warmed. Oh God, how it needs some warmth. When I step
off the platform I fall into my friend’s caring arms. She knows.
Women just know, don’t they? She grabs my suitcase and
together we walk arm in arm to her little blue Datsun.
Judy’s cozy apartment is a welcome sanctuary and the first
thing she does is outfit me with a pair of fuzzy warm socks.

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