Page 353 - Reason To Sing by Kelita Haverland

Epilogue

what I have received is much more meaningful than material
objects and fame. When I hear from those who have been
transformed by my story and music, that has been my greatest
reward.
And that is also why I knew I had to complete this book.
The truth is, this literary effort has been a lifetime in the
making. And I don’t just mean the living and enduring and
fighting and surviving, I mean the actual writing down of it all.
There were many times I just wanted to pack it in. Especially
after my brother Billy drowned. It just seemed like all the pain
and tragedy couldn’t possibly be real. I wondered if my life
sounded like some over-acted soap opera. A melodrama that
couldn’t possibly be true.
It was hard enough to live through it all the first time. I
wasn’t sure I could bring myself to live through it again. On
paper.
It has been difficult to dredge up the old heartaches and
wounds and get in touch with those raw feelings and emotions
once again. But there has also been an upside. Throughout this
writing process I’ve been compelled to greater healing and
deeper insight and compassion. Not only for my family but
for all the other people who have left their mark on my life,
positive or negative. I have a new appreciation of the tenacity
and resilience I have been granted over my lifetime. I am proud
of the years of personal work I have done which have led me
to a most welcome place of truth and transparency. And yes, I
have finally learned to love myself.
When I realized I could help other people by sharing my
story, I finally knew my purpose. Since then, there has been
no turning back. My greatest desire has been to help as many
people as possible find the freedom and healing that I have
experienced. Owning your truth is a continuous journey and

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