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Reason To Sing

affair, I couldn’t shake her presence. She was constantly in my
thoughts and dreams. Finally, I gave in to The Messenger and
sent her an email. I asked if we could meet. She agreed.
As our ‘date’ drew nearer I came to understand why I was
being led to meet with her. She had already written me a letter,
apologizing. And I had forgiven her (even though she was
much harder to forgive than Gord). But now, I felt the need to
pardon her, face to face.
I was nervous but also trusting; I knew The One leading
had a plan.
We met at a restaurant. She was far more nervous than I. It
was awkward at first as we read menus and talked about steak
and the weather. But we settled in and ultimately enjoyed a
nice meal together. There were even a few moments when time
stood still. It was almost as if nothing untoward had happened.
Just two old friends catching up. I truly did miss our friendship
and seeing her only magnified that.
Over dessert I was able to look my betrayer in the eyes and
tell her that I had forgiven her. We both had tears streaming
down our cheeks as something lifted. A weight, a burden, a
mistake – call it what you will. I felt a million pounds lighter.
For a split second I even thought we might be friends again.
No.
I came to my senses and realized there was far too much
(turbulent) water under that bridge.
Lenora remained with her husband Bobby, but not for
long. Eventually they divorced. I heard she remarried but that
the new union didn’t endure either.
I hope she’s been able to find healing. Back then, when
I was her friend, I knew she had some deep issues. I would
like to believe that her journey has brought her understanding,
accountability and self-forgiveness.

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