Page 89 - You Only Live Once [BooksLD]
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It is all within us. The monster and the God. The truth and the lies.
Dreams and reality.
‘How did I get here?’ I ask, clueless and dejected.
‘That’s a question I should be asking. Isn’t it?’
‘I can’t feel my legs. I am too intoxicated.’
‘Ricky! Grow up. What if it were high tide? You would have been swept
away by the waves. I can’t afford to lose you.’
‘Don’t be worried about me. I don’t deserve so much. Ricky’s is yours
after I die,’ I laugh as I press my hands against my stomach.
‘You deserve that, and much more. I love you.’ She helps me get up by
offering me a helping hand. Sheen has taught me so much. In relationships,
one has to be transparent and reflecting like water. Love back, give back,
don’t only expect things from other people.
I laugh hysterically at my situation, my dream, my life, which is no short
of an artwork.
‘How can you be so happy all the time?’ Sheen wonders.
‘Happiness comes in various shades, shapes, and forms. Happiness is
omnipresent. Happiness comes from within. All you have to do is decide to
be happy.’
‘What about the pain that we feel?’
‘Pain is temporary. It heals after a while. Your life is a mixed bag of
emotions. Cherish them all.’
As we keep moving along the beach, I come across a beautiful shell. I
pick it up and adjust it on my finger. After sailing for so long, I did fall in
love again, but with the sea. This bond feels like it would last an eternity. It
never fades, just gets stronger with every passing day. This shell-like ring
on my finger is just a token for you to see. What I feel is something I may
never be able to express in words.
Meditation for me is floating free in the ocean, shallow or deep, Indian or
Mediterranean, blue or green, it simply does not matter. Ocean heals me in
ways nothing ever has or ever will. Search for that one thing in life that
gives you immense happiness and keep going back to it. It may not
necessarily be human. It’s this bond that brings me to Canacona Island, all
on my own, often.