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'grown up and responsible adults' completely messed up, but the
majority of them don’t even know it. And so I started to look for ways
of working around it, of coping with it, until I could find an effective
cure. I went through primary school and then high school, and with
every day that passed, I started feeling more and more pressured to
find a solution that would cure all the 'normality' that was going on
around me. It wasn’t long before I realized that, if I was going to
make a significant change in the world around me, I first had to find a
way of making a significant change in the world inside me.

And so began the journey of my self-discovery - layer, after layer,
after layer. I had to mine my way through all those ideas and con-
cepts that are so easily traded in today’s society. How 'good' should
feel, how 'bad' should feel. Soon I realized that most of what I con-
veniently called 'my life', was actually made up of other’s thoughts of
life. In fact, what was truly original to me, had very little to do with
words, let alone thoughts. The closer I got to the core, the deeper the
silence, until at one point, there was nothing left but silence - but not
a dead silence, no. It was the most vibrant, energetic, bursting-with-
life silence that I’ve ever had the chance to know. It was a place of no
words, and yet, at the same time, the birthplace of every word. It was
an overflowing river of love, compassion, understanding and intelli-
gence, with no real restrictions whatsoever - spontaneity at its best.

Wow! Now that is something worth dying for! Yes, sign me up for
anything that succeeds it, and if I have to go a million more times
through what precedes it, then sign me up for that as well!