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self-exploration. An excellent example
is that in my first marriage my husband
would occasionally hit me. I mean not all
the time, but occasionally he would beat
the crap out of me, and it would be very
severe when he would do it. He would
be enraged, and he just couldn’t stop
himself. I eventually left him and as time
went on, I married a second time and
divorced again.
I began doing all kinds of inner
work. I became an astrologer, studied
Jungian psychology, and I broadened
my horizons considerably. I moved
to Ashland, Oregon, to live alone and
explore my relationship patterns. Even
though I was going through all this
growth, I still could never forgive my
first husband. Try as I might! During
meditation, I’d put him into a bubble
“To confront a person with his shadow is and release him, going through all the
to show him his own light. Once one has motions of sending him up into the
experienced a few times what it is like to ethers, cutting off all the strings, etc.,
stand judgingly between the opposites, only to come out of meditation, saying
one begins to understand what is meant to myself, “That son-of-a-bitch!” I just
by the Self. Anyone who perceives his could not forgive him.
shadow and his light simultaneously sees
himself from two sides and thus gets All the years I lived in the Pacific
in the middle.” — Carl Jung, CW 10 : Northwest, I focused on personal growth;
Civilization in Transition: paragraph 872 I was celibate and wasn’t interested
in creating another relationship. My
I have another very interesting example intention was to focus on myself, using
that I want to share with you, and these psychology, and astrology to better
were her exact words. understand my destructive patterns.
It’s been amazing what I’ve discovered After a while, I decided that I missed not
about myself over years of this type of having a partner and needed one. I was
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