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6 Not of This World

Fred was not interested in going through any more
pregnancies with me. He depended on me to be the strong one, and I
didn’t know whether I had the strength to face another devastating
loss. With mixed feeling, I agreed to have my tubes tied. It was to be
a simple, one day outpatient procedure.

On the day of my appointment, after being wheeled into the
operating room, the anesthesiologist explained the procedure to me
and then hooked me up to the sedation. The next thing I was aware of
was that I seemed to be floating and looking down from somewhere,
watching the doctors and nurses work on me in the operating room. I
felt like I was in a place of total serenity, peace, love, acceptance and
belonging like I had never, ever experienced before.

As I looked down into that room, the people seemed to be like
nervous little squeaky mice, busily scurrying around, completely
oblivious to the existence of this other wonderful place of serenity I
was in. I loved wherever it was I was at and had no desire to return to
that bustling, uncomfortable, unaware world down there.

Then I heard my name being called, and it felt like I was being
tugged by someone to come back down to that awfully worldly place.
I thought, “No, no way am I going back there.” It seemed that I had
no choice in the matter. I remember angrily saying, “What are you
doing to me?” I was kicking and trying to resist. As I opened my
eyes and looked around the white sterile room and at the nurse’s
concerned face, I realized that indeed I was back. I began shaking
violently from the coldness of the place. She put a blanket around me
but it didn’t provide the profound sense of total spirit/mind/body
comfort and warmth I had just experienced in that “other world
experience”.

I had returned but I had returned with memories of an
incredible experience. As the anesthesia wore off, I still felt the glow
and deep connection to where I had been. It had been profound. I