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Josh with his brother, Greg, 1985

8 Till Death We Do Part?

Our marriage seemed to worsen with the new baby on the
scene. Fred was jealous of any attention I gave to Josh. He often
acted more like a jealous brother than a father. I felt trapped in a
triangle between Fred and our son.
Fred and I had a lot in common. We enjoyed nature, animals,
travelling, and eating out. My mom and dad loved him like a son. I
couldn’t understand why he was always so unhappy. I never knew,
even in the middle of very special intimate moments together, what
might set him off into a tirade. I felt like the proverbial mouse that
gets shocked every time it tries to go for the cheese. It was definitely
an up and down “yoyo” relationship.

Josh was two and a half years old when an argument escalated
into a physical attack so scary that our neighbors called the police.
That was the final straw for me. I was tired of trying to handle Fred