Page 320 - Under the Cover of Darkness

Chemotherapy really feels very much like this: I’ve been
asleep the entire time. I’m in but I’m really weak n I
haven’t managed to get down the stairs to open the door
yet.

1 November 2014 —
Hey Everyone, I haven’t managed to get out so far this
weekend cos the chemo’s really knocked me off my feet
this time, but I’ve been trying to rest and wash it through
with just loads of sleep and water in the hope I’ll have
the strength to come out for my 40th Birthday
Tomorrow.....send me strength guys.

3 November 2014 —
THANK YOU EVERYONE who sent me Birthday mes-
sages n cards n pressies for my 40th yesterday. So kind,
I’m sorry I was too ill to really celebrate but I have a plan
in the pipeline for a 41st / Halloween / Art Exhibition /
Cancer Ass Kicking EXRAVAGANZA in 2015...........

3 November 2014 —
Well, all this positive attitude bollox is wearing a bit thin
now, today I’m just feeling totally fucked off with all this
shite
Pretty much every birthday going back the past however
many years has had something wank about it. This year
I’ve got cancer - which is disappointing cos I wanted
Plasticine!
I’m feeling a bit stronger now and I have 2 weeks until my
next chemo. I seem to feel shite for about 7 days after a
chemo. If you message me any times that’d be good for
you in the next week or so that’ll be good.