Page 324 - Under the Cover of Darkness

18 November 2014 —
Next lot of chemo they’re trying to
persuade me to have steroids so soon
I shall be fat as well as bald and an
even more mental aggressive version
of myself.
As my hair continues to shed I’m now
wearing a black head scarf and I look
like one of those little old Spanish
ladies Now I get to wear an old Spanish lady scarf!

19 November 2014 —
I am SO thankful that today has been the least sick, least
weak, least painful Wednesday after a chemo so far!
Thank God (If She exists) and please God let it last.
With some painkillers and lots of water and anti-emetics
and warm blankets I even managed to get in the Art
Studio and work a little bit! I’ll just fight against it in my
usual style

20 November 2014 —
Really trying to fight this peripheral neuropathy off! I hate
it! I’m eating porridge I ground myself, drinking loads of
water, exercising, taking showers... any other ideas please
share them.
It’s such a weird feeling - like how your mouth goes after
being anaesthetised at the dentist but your whole body.
So weird! Managed to do 2 hours in the art studio though
thank Gawd I am already on anti-epileptics,
anti-anxiety / depressants, beta blockers, amethystine,
codeine...