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By Muhammad Afzal Qayyum

Isolated, isolated, isolated

I’m being isolated
No more staying outside

There’s battles to build

and cities to burn

I don’t think people realize how much

strength it takes to pull your own self

out of a dark place mentally

But
NURFAHARIN BINTI MAT
To be alone but not lonely
Every night my fearful heart is suffocating,
To be social but not to be socializing
Going into the dark world, Going deeper with
To think of everything you have and be heavy step,

thankful for all you have and don’t have How to overcome this unbearable pain?
Trapped in my own fantasy,

Ever felt like you just want to sit in silence Everything is unfamiliar,

for hours? Losing myself like a kid lost their way,

Staring at the ceiling wondering when exactly What is the reason I am alive?
this feeling will fade but you are also Hiding in the pitch-black darkness,

wondering if this emptiness, loneliness and Going to get out of here,
isolation
Standing at the edge of cliff,
is a good thing or worse?
Someone prays and cries secretly.

Stuck between fantasy and reality,
Isolated
But why stop in believing the reality?
I will isolate myself for days, maybe even
With all strength left inside,
weeks…maybe forever.
I swallowed the pain and getting up again.

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