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throughout the entire night and afterwards to lose the Master of the universe, give me complete faith. Help all of the uncleanness and filth that clings to them as a
day as well. Help me clearly know that going to sleep me understand that You are all-powerful, that nothing result of my evil deeds. Restore them to me with calm,
when we aren’t tired is sleep that results from craving. can frustrate anything You plan, and that in the brief with quiet and with surety. Hashem my God, may I wake
And this is an absolute delusion—because, as we know amount of time that I am sleeping You can renew all up precisely at midnight to get up like a soldier on his
from our own experience, after such a sleep we wake up my powers, mind and faith, and give me everything I watch and pray to You, Hashem my God, and learn
exhausted. need to maintain the health of my body and soul. Have Your Torah, because You are Hashem my God. Help me
compassion on me so that sleeping less will not harm and strengthen me with the mitzvah of arising every night
Help me sleep in great holiness and purity. Have either my body or my soul. Help me know that only You exactly at midnight. You Who hear the prayer of Your
compassion on me and help me. Open the gates of give health, life, renewal and faith. Have compassion on nation of Israel with compassion, may this not cause me
compassion and kindness before my soul. Command me and in the short amount of time that I am asleep give to experience any headache, suffering or harm. Blessed is
Your holy angels not to hinder my soul, so that it may me everything I need for the health of my body and soul, the One Who hears prayer. “Awaken, my soul, awaken,
enter the gates of holiness when I am asleep. Elevate and renew my mind and faith. lyre and harp, I will awake the dawn” (Psalms 57:9). “Moses
my soul and awareness, and bring them into the realm taught us Torah, an inheritance for the congregation of
of holy faith when I am sleeping. May I renew my mind Master of the universe, help me so that I will not Jacob” (Deuteronomy 33:4).
and soul within faith as I sleep. And may the verse be be taken aback at the idea of serving You with sleep,
realized, “New in the mornings, vast is Your faithfulness” thinking that doing so is a waste of time, heaven forbid. from the siddur Tehillat Hashem
(Lamentations 3:22). As a result of sleeping in a state of On the contrary, everything depends on this. It is even
holiness and purity, may I always receive new awareness worthwhile investing two hours in serving You and Many thanks for waking me up to engage in the service
and a new soul from the light of the countenance. engaging in battle every night in order to attain holy of holy sleep, and many thanks for everything. I thank
sleep and, afterwards, a day of clinging to You, filled You for the past and I cry out to You for the future. You
Help me read the Bedtime Sh’ma in a state of great with holy awareness. Help me not be afraid to chase are the King Who desires life. Please rescue me from
and awesome holiness, with an utter dedication to truly sleep away from my eyes for even an entire hour before the worst evil inclination, which is the evil inclination for
sanctify Your name. May I confess all my transgressions, I go to sleep—and, how much more, a few minutes— sleep. Give me true life. Help me stand firm in the war of
wrongdoings and sins before I go to sleep, and may I during which time I stand and prepare myself well and life until I gain victory. I will not die but I will live. I will
do complete teshuvah for the blemishes that I created properly to attain holy sleep. And by gaining strength in tell the deeds of God, and before You I will live a long
during the day. May I truly resolve to no longer return to the final minutes of the day, may I rectify the entire day. life: a life of peace, a life of goodness, a life of blessing,
my foolishness. Before I go to sleep, may I truly accept a life of income, a life of strengthening of bones, a life
upon myself, with all my heart, the four modes of capital Master of the universe, help me wake up filled with filled with the fear of heaven and the fear of sin, a life
punishment imposed by a Jewish court. Have compassion holy will. The entire day, may I be filled with holy without shame and disgrace, a life of wealth and honor,
on me. Forgive and pardon me, and grant me atonement intentions and yearning, all of which depend on my a life in which I will possess the love of Torah and fear of
for my every blemish that runs counter to You. Purify service of Hashem that is associated with sleep. Please heaven, a life in which Hashem will fulfill the requests of
my nefesh, ruach and neshamah. In Your compassion, have compassion on me and deliver me from the desire my heart for the good. Amen. Selah.
command the gates of compassion, the gates of holy to sleep, a desire that results in an entire day filled with
faith, to open to my soul. Bring my soul into holy faith a craving for oblivion, as I feel tired and cold, lacking May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my
when I am sleeping until it will rise because of that faith fervor and yearning, an entire day in which evil urges heart be pleasing before You, Hashem, my Rock and my
to the light of the countenance of holiness, and I will overwhelm me. When a person’s holy will is weak, his evil Redeemer.