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this evil inclination that appears like a good inclination, know, with complete and strong awareness, without any drives gain power over him. And then he loses day after
clothing itself in mitzvot. Help me know that only by doubt, that all tiredness is only a form of suffering, and day, may the Compassionate One have mercy. Please
means of faith and teshuvah are we redeemed from the that what Hashem wants of me when I wake up tired is to help me know with complete clarity that the greatest and
suffering of tiredness. Give me the strength to accept the accept that suffering with love, to stand up and express cruelest evil inclination is the evil inclination for sleep.
suffering of tiredness with love, and to thank You. my thanks for this suffering of exhaustion. In that way, Rescue me and save me. Give me the strength to stand
may I renew my complete faith until You will restore firm in this battle.
Grant me the complete faith that only You give life, my soul and mind, and I will no longer be tired, because
and that You can give me strength and life and renew my only faith nullifies tiredness and gives a person strength Master of the universe, give me the strength to
energy even if I sleep very little. The main thing is that I and life. overcome sleep and wake up filled with energy. By
sleep without any craving and desire to sleep whatsoever. overcoming sleep, we also break our craving for money,
Master of the universe, completely nullify my craving for Help me so that my first thought on getting up in the we nullify all heresy and we maintain our faith. Help
sleep. Completely nullify my evil inclination for sleep. morning will be the awareness of the world-to-come. me get up at such-and-such a time (here designate the
Rescue me! Completely nullify my craving to sleep away May I cling anew to the world-to-come, say Modeh ani time that you want to get up) at the very latest. And
my life. Completely nullify my craving to burn up the joyfully, wash my hands next to my bed, and make all if You want to wake me up earlier, I will be happy to
hours of my life. Could this death give me life? Rescue of my preparations with great alacrity. Help me so that get up then. Help me be aware that You are the One
me from sleep, which attempts to seize me. after I have gotten up, I do not sit down, so that my Who wakes me up. Help me get up from bed filled with
evil inclination will not seize me and make me tired and energy, without any lethargy at all, without looking at
Master of the universe, help me serve You even when then fill me with the desire to sleep. Instead, may I do my watch, and without any heretical thought that I need
I feel that I am being overwhelmed by weariness. Give everything standing up. And help me so that while I am to sleep more, that I haven’t slept enough, and the like.
me the knowledge that I should not sit down for even a organizing myself and I cannot say words of Torah, I will We only receive life from You, and every thought that
single minute, because the essence of the evil inclination think of You and thank You for everything without end: pulls us to sleep is heresy. Help me not lose the precious
at night is the drive to cause a person to sit down. If “Thank You for my having slept, thank You that I got hours between midnight and morning. And if I really
he does, it can easily make him feel tired and sorry up, thank You for my clothes and shoes, for my blanket, need to sleep, may I make it up during the day with just
for himself, thinking that he must have compassion on for my watch and for the water, for the washing cup and a few minutes’ sleep.
himself and desire to sleep, or it can make him taste the for my health,” and so on.
counterfeit sweetness of sleep. In that way, it easily drags Master of the universe, help me wake up early and
him into an evil sleep. He does not realize that this is a Master of the universe, You created Your world in flee from my bed. Untie the ropes of sleep that bind me
dangerous ambush of the evil inclination that wants to Your beneficent will in accordance with what arose in to my bed, and free me from the prison of my sheets.
seize him, and is only waiting for him to sit down so that Your primordial thought. You created heaven and all of Give me awareness, so that I will not be attracted by the
it may immediately grab him. its host, the earth and all that is on it. You created man thought of lying down again. Help me know that once
upon it, and You blew the breath of life into His nostrils I have gotten up, even if I feel tired, I am forbidden to
Please, King Who redeems and rescues, Who redeems so that he may recognize Your greatness and splendor. surrender to my evil inclination, which tries to exploit
and protects, have compassion on me so that I will be You give life to all beings, because You are the Soul my unclear thinking and persuade me to go back to
clearly aware that the war is arduous and I will not let of all souls and the Life of all lives. Hashem my God, I sleep, and which fills me with heretical ideas that if I
that break me, but I will stand firm and battle my evil deposit my nefesh, ruach and neshamah in Your pure sleep more I will have more strength, and that I cannot
inclination. This is the war of our lives, the “war of and faithful hand. Hashem my God, purify them from function when I am so tired, and so forth. May I reliably