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we would have ended up with real mental problems.” God was
sufficient for me and He will be sufficient for you too.

One of the keys to my wholeness was forgiveness and an-other was
dealing with self-pity. I used to have “pity parties” like you wouldn't
believe! It was so sad because of what I had been through, I felt so sorry
for myself. But one thing I learnt is that no one likes to go to someone
else's pity party! Many years ago I suffered a nervous breakdown and I
faced all the things in my life that I have talked about here today. I could
never think about them without feeling the hurt and getting upset, so if
ever a thought came into my mind it was as though I would quickly
retrieve it and stuff it back in. I felt like a bottle full of fizzy ready to
explode with all this pres-sure inside. When I had the breakdown God
made me face all these hurts and I went back through my life, just me and
God together, and one at a time I thought about each hurt, asked God to
heal it and because Jesus had given His life for that very sinful act, to
forgive Mum for that thing (like the mitts for example.) I could never

think about it before, let alone talk about it. For me to be able to stand
up here today and express these things without feeling upset shows how
com-plete the healing is. When I faced each thing individually in this
way the pressure I felt inside was gone instantaneously! It was truly
amazing.

Jesus also said:
Don't repay evil with evil, but overcome evil with good. 1
Peter 3:9:
Love your enemy, do good to those who despitefully use you.
Matthew 5:44

Bless them that persecute you. Romans 12:14
These are attitude-changing principles and they work! I asked God to bless
Mum every time I think of her. At first it nearly choked me to say it, but
now I mean it!
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