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to me, “Jill, it’s all right for you to be an up-front leader, you're so
confident but I could never do that.” Or they will say, “Jill, you’re
amazing.” But I know that I am a miracle - it is God who is amazing! If
they only knew how much I had been crushed. I was so shy I couldn't walk
on the same side of the street as someone in case they looked at me; if
I saw someone coming I'd cross over to avoid having eye contact. I couldn't
look in a mirror for years and if I went to speak and people turned to look
at me I would get in a panic and my words would all come out wrong
or I would say something entirely inappropriate and get embarrassed. It
was agony. But God took my life and, like an onion He slowly peeled off
the layers of hurt and damage.

I often
think that
when I was a
child if I
could have
looked into
the future and
seen myaelf
now I'd have

thought that I
had died and
g o n e t o
Heaven! I have
sheets on my bed! My little granddaughter flopped backwards my
day she said, “Granny, you've got a “Princess’s bed!” And I
have! Its all cream lace and I've got this lovely headboard with a white
and brass wrought iron head! I have got princess’s bed it's
waterbed! I thought how blessed I am! I'm loved, I've got a family, little
grandchildren and I am a miracle. I should not be standing here tonight
but for the grace of God. My sister said to me today, “If it hadn't been

for God we wouldn't have survived or
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