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repent, I whole-heartily reminded

myself that I shall repent too, not

because I need to be a role model, but

because I am a sinner, just a more

educated and a know-how-to-cover-it-up

sinner. Rarely I did not realize that I

have sinned, rather usually I knew His

command very well but I still sinned. On

occasions I felt I knew the biblical

knowledge well and could organize a

talk as a well-respected person in and

outside of the church, but that conscious

can start to inflate to the point that I felt

like “the cedar tree from Lebanon, tall

and lofty.” Clearly I knew God does not

like me in that mode, but the times when

I felt like the broken tax collector in

Jesus’s parables who pounded the chest

and said “I am a sinner” and sincerely

asked for forgiveness. In the church and