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Sitting in that meeting that day struggling Recovering my physical, mental and
to see, to pay attention, to care at all emotional health to a stable place took
something snapped. I could no longer do five different specialists and nearly two
this. I decided to go to the Dr. after the years.
meeting ended. Normally I would have
sheepishly “asked” if it was okay to go, not I questioned everything I thought I knew
today, not ever again. I simply announced about myself. I immersed myself in self
that I was headed out. help books, seminars, weekend retreats
and high ticket masterminds. After more
The combination of long hours and years than a hundred thousand dollars and lots
of non-stop stress I submerged myself in, of certifications, I came to realize that I had
left me with massive amounts of the answers inside of me all along.
inflammation flowing through my body
and a torn retina. I now understand, we are created as multi-
faceted human beings and ignoring any of
Okay… God, you have my attention! the key areas of our life catches up with
us…usually when we least expect it or can
After my Dr. visit, I called my boss and had least afford it.
him replace me. I was in for a long road of
healing and couldn’t abandoned my team Most of us have seen this play out. Who
to a temporary leader. There was too much knows someone who put all their energy
at risk, too many lives about to be and time into work “for the family” only to
impacted. loose it all in divorce?
I was a strong leader for more than 30 I learned first hand what happens when
years in a fortune 50 corporation. I made you ignore health warnings “because I
important decisions daily, lead large thought I was irreplaceable”. Guess what,
teams, managed hundreds of millions in the moment they needed to replace me,
sales and profits and all that went with it. they did.
What I was struggling to do now, was It was more than clear that I had been
figure out who I was when all the titles and setting aside or ignoring some pretty
roles were stripped away? I realized that I important parts of my life. To sort that out
mostly knew myself by my roles that either and go on to create a life much more on
chose me or I chose for myself, mostly by purpose, my purpose, would require me to
default. get to know myself in a way I never had.
In this process, I came to know and
understand what I really wanted for my
life. I'm not talking vision boards or SMART
goals here. (AND they have their place.)
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