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The voice was saying how sorry he was for not calling or

texting me back. It appeared as though John’s thoughts were
being made known to me through my stereo.

Also, several nights I heard, “She loves me, and I love
her!” Then I would hear a female voice break down crying
and saying, “You don’t love her. You lust her!” At first, I

thought I left on the television, but then I knew something
crazy was going on. I also started hearing, “I love you so
much.” I would hear that voice from an external position, but
it didn't sound anything like John's voice. It was a deep voice.
Later, I began hearing more voices coming from the living
room stereo. Most of the time though, I’d hear voices that

seemed to be in the air. It was as invisible people were all
around me speaking loudly. In addition, the depression was
getting worse. I wrote two journal entries:

Something is seriously wrong with me right now.

I’ve fallen into a deep depression that I can’t
seem to snap myself out of it. I know taking

Adderall is not helping and I need to figure out a
way to safely get off of it. Strange things and
sensations are happening.

Gotta break this trance I’m in; this obsession that
sickens me so much. It consumes all other
thoughts making them disappear as soon as

they’re realized. To focus on anything else is the
most difficult task – it’s like drowning in thick
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