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I make a quick glanc e around the room, just to make sure no thi ng

em barra ssing will catch hi s ey e. He takes a sea t on my bed and I watch
as he scans the room. I stand in the door way to my bathro om and try
to give hi m one last out.
“You say thi s will make it stop, but I’m warni ng you right no w, R yle.
I’m like a drug. If you ha ve sex with me toni ght , it’s onl y going to
make thi ng s worse for you. But onc e is all you’re get ting . I ref use to

bec ome one of the many girls you use to—ho w did you word it tha t
ni ght ? Sat isfy your needs ?”
He lea ns back on hi s el bows. “You aren’ t tha t kind of girl, Lily. And
I’m no t the kind of guy who need s someo ne more tha n onc e. We ha ve
no thi ng to worr y about.”
I close the door behi nd me, wond eri ng ho w in the hel l thi s guy
talked me int o thi s.

It’s the scrubs. The scrubs are my wea knes s. It ha s no thi ng to do
with hi m.
I wonde r if the re’s a way he could leav e the m on du ring the sex?

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I’ve nev er taken more tha n ha lf an ho ur to get rea dy, but it’s almost
an ho ur bef ore I’m fini shed in the bathro om. I sha ved more parts of
me tha n was probably nec essary, and then spent a good twent y

minu tes ha ving a frea k-out, and ha d to talk mysel f out of openi ng the
door and tel ling hi m to lea ve. But no w tha t my ha ir is dry and I’m
clea ner tha n I’ve ev er been, I thi nk I might be able to do thi s. I can
totally ha ve a one- ni ght stand . I’m twent y-three yea rs old.
I open the door and he’s still there on my bed . I’m a little
disappoint ed to see tha t hi s scrub top is on the floor, but I don’t see
hi s pants, so he must still be wea ring them . He’s und er the covers ,
tho ugh, so I can’t tel l.

I close the door behi nd me and wait for hi m to roll over and look
at me, but he does n’t. I take a few step s closer, and tha t’s when I
no tice he’s sno ring .
Not just a light —oh I just fell as leep—s no re. It’s a middle of REM
sleep kind of sno re.

“R yle?” I whi sper. He does n’t ev en budge when I sha ke hi m.