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Wha t’s ev en bet ter, is when I do dec ide to ha ve sex with R yle, we

can ha ve it over here all the time and no t ha ve to worr y about bei ng
quiet .
The last time I spoke to R yle was when I lef t hi s apartment on
Saturday. We agreed on a trial run. No commitment s yet . Just a
rel ations hi p feel er to see if it’s somet hi ng we both want . It’s no w
Mond ay ni ght and I’m a little disappoint ed I ha ven’t hea rd from hi m.

I gave him my pho ne nu mber bef ore we parted Saturday, but I don’t
rea lly kno w tex ting et iquet te, es pec ially for trial runs.
Reg ardles s, I’m no t tex ting hi m firs t.
I dec ide to occupy my time with teena ge ang st and Ellen
DeG eneres , ins tea d. I’m no t about to wait around to be bec koned by
a guy I’m no t ev en ha ving sex with. But I don’t kno w why I assume
tha t rea ding about the first guy I had sex with will someho w get my

mind off the guy I’m not ha ving sex with.

Dear Ellen,
My great-gran df at he r’s nam e is Ellis. My entire life, I tho ught that was a
real ly cool nam e for such an old guy. After he di ed, I was readi ng the obituar y.

Would you believe that Ellis was n’t even hi s real nam e? His real nam e was
Le vi Sam pson an d I had no ide a.
I as ked my gran dm othe r whe re the nam e Ellis cam e from. She sai d hi s
initial s were L. S. an d ever yone cal led hi m by hi s initial s for so long, the y just
star ted soundi ng the m out over the year s.
Whi ch is why the y refer red to hi m as Ellis.
I was looking at your nam e just now an d it made me thi nk of that . Ellen. Is

that even your real nam e? You could be just like my great -gran df at he r an d
using your initial s as a di sguise.
L. N.
I’m onto you, “Ellen.”
Speak ing of nam es, do you thi nk Atlas is a weird nam e? It is, isn’t it?
Yesterday whi le I was wat chi ng your sho w with hi m, I as ked hi m whe re he

got his nam e from. He sai d he di dn’t know. Witho ut even thi nking, I told hi m
he sho uld as k hi s mothe r why she nam ed hi m that . He just looked over at me
for a second an d sai d, “It’s a little too lat e for that .”
I do n’t know wha t he mean t by that . I do n’t know if hi s mom di ed, or if she
gav e hi m up for ado ption. We’ve been friends for a few weeks now an d I still