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saw me through every down moment, he was with me every step of the
way. This had taken a toll on him too. I knew he was happy for me. We'd
made it through… together.

For the next couple of days, I was decompressing. I was surprised I wasn’t
happier, but I wasn’t. I was physically and mentally exhausted. The weight of
this was unimaginable and wasn’t going to leave easily. It’s nothing that you
can imagine, unless you’ve gone through something like this. I wasn’t ready
to celebrate yet. I was thankful and happy, but I still wasn’t ok.

Thursday, Jay and I headed back to Tahoe. I needed to rest. A couple of
days went by and I could feel my body becoming achy. I was getting
sick. My immune system couldn’t hold up any longer. It had given me
everything it had to get me to that point.

Over the next week, I drench my body with Vitamin C, gargled with warm salt
water, and took Airborne. Finally I started to feel a bit better. I could feel the
weight that had been sitting on my shoulders for the last year, becoming
lighter. I was beginning to feel the reality of the most exciting news of my
life. I was beginning to feel free from the grips of Cancer. The word that in a
blink of an eye, had taken over my life. The emotional wall I had built, the wall
that I hid behind was finally coming down. I started to realize it was over and
that I was on the road to recovery. I wasn’t completely there yet, but the
journey had begun.

I finally called my Dad and Linda to let them know the good news. I was a bit
apprehensive at first, because somewhere in my mind I was fearing this
wasn't truly over. When they heard the good news, they were so happy. A
weight was lifting of their shoulders too. We'd all been on this roller coaster
ride. Finally, it was over and I needed to let myself be in that moment,
because that’s where I was. It was over.