Page 278 - Under the Cover of Darkness

so much love, such outpourings of love and energy to
spend on the world, I was incapable of being offered
love, giving it or summoning the energy with which I
knew I could transform myself and everything around
me.”

19 May 2014 —
Just crafting some spells and preparing for some spiritual
work and the energy in the room is amazing! Glittery and
tingly and like a soft, tangible magic in the air!

26 May 2014 —
Meet me half way God! Well I was at The Bell, sat waiting
at the bar a good couple of hours but I'm sure She never
turned up. I'd have bought her a drink if she'd shown up
for me - not that I know what God drinks. At the
moment she just seems to be giving me the lemons to cut
up n put in me Gin n Tonic.
Well - If I'm an Artist and advocate self-expression and
not going along with the norm and I can't pluck up the
courage to wear something different it’s a bit of a sad
state of affairs so I bit the bullet and wore it and got
various looks and comments including plenty of
complimentary ones so I think I shall go on wearing
whatever the heck I like!

26 May 2014 —
Sometimes, my days start with that lurching feeling in my
stomach like when you go over a bridge and a sense of
panic and disappointment hit me like a bullet in the back,
then I feel all the strength drain out of me like liquid lead
pouring down through every limb and it’s time to get up