Page 309 - Under the Cover of Darkness

lightning. The lightening is coming FROM the spiritual to
destroy the physical. It represents a sudden shocking
destruction but ultimately results in renewal and
rejuvenation, all our notions of self-consciousness are
turned round. . .What an apt card for me at the moment!
I’m thinking the destruction will be of things that need to
be broken down such as misplaced beliefs, insecurities,
material values etc. and that will clear the way for more
spiritual positive growth.... like a butterfly
I’ve been on an "emergency waiting list" for psychology
help for 2 years (WTF?!) I’m wondering if my breast
cancer diagnosis will add any extra "points" towards
getting me any help from mental health. I’d love to have a
CPN ideally - but even a psychologist would be good. I
think this will have a massive psychological / emotional
impact on me plus the fact I’ve already got bi-polar and
suspected PTSD. Let’s see if I get any nearer the front of
the mental health que now

18 September 2014 — Yesterday in an
appointment with my breast cancer
care nurse she handed me what
looked like a box of chocolates.
When she opened the lid instead of
chocolates in all the little
compartments there were loads of
different nipples! I was like "No
thanks I’m trying to cut back"
I Love my boobs! I might have to have a funeral for them
if n when they go. I should have insured them when I
was a glamour model - then I might have been in for a
big windfall now! Doh!