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be "Unidentified vegetable" - surprisingly there were no
takers. One patient shared with me how he has actually
developed a phobia of anything in cling film since
attending chemo. Last week the Dr told me the new
meds I would start this week would have absolutely no
bearing on my bi-polar at all. Today 3 nurses approached
me to reiterate I must be extremely vigilant for the
adverse effects these new meds could have on my
bi-polar. I asked who I should contact if I do have a
mental health problem and they said "whoever currently
looks after your mental health" That’s easy then, no one.

9 December 2014 —
Given they I have memory loss,
difficulty focusing and mania
what the hell are the chances
of me not fucking up any of
this medication?! all to be taken
at different times in different
ways - sum with food sum after
food sum b4 food sum
standing on your head doing a
Rubik cube with your hands
behind your back. Tablets,
injections, sachets, gels, powders...this morning I was
talking to a carton of milk

19 December 2014 —
Well you find yourself in some weird situations as an Artist
and as a Cancer patient. Yesterday I ended up with a
surgeon drawing flat shapes to make nipples out of. We
both totally on the same wavelength but Mom n the