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*my mind is racing with so many thoughts its giving me a
head ache.
* I really want to get back into making lots of Art but I
have lost my confidence
* I’ve got lots of ideas but I can’t pick 1 to focus on. I am
worried that I will choose the wrong thing to work on.
* There is a story about a donkey that starved to death
because he was standing between 2 bales of hay and he
couldn’t choose which one to eat. The donkey would
have been better off just picking any 1 but he died
because he couldn’t make a simple choice.
I feel a bit like that because I have lots of ideas for
paintings I could do but I can’t seem to choose 1 so I am
ending up doing none at all.
* There is also a proverb that says "A Man who chases 2
butterflies’ catches neither" - which means, if you are
trying to achieve more than 1 thing at a time you will
probably not succeed at anything. It’s better to pick 1 goal
to aim for so this saying about butterflies also seems to
relate to how I feel at the moment.
All these thoughts and feelings are driving me mad and I
wish I could get rid of them, clear my mind and start
being productive again.

7 June 2015 —
Trying to decide on a colour for my hair between very dark
OR pale pink...? Purple does sound ace and dark pink too
but I might have to do those in the future. Actually I
don’t really understand the doctors saying wait 6 months
until your hair is "stronger". Why would it be "stronger"
in 6 months? It’ll still be the same hair - just older and
probably more dead ends. Or am I being a div?