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12 June 2015 —
Just finished this painting. Getting
ready to re-open my shop and start
creating and adding new Art. This
one will be up for sale soon...
Stunning Acrylic and Mixed Media
Painting Woman Lady Orchids Pink
Flowers Bright…

16 June 2015 —
Why do I feel like shite? It’s bad enough feeling pants
when you know why so you can do something about it
but when you feel crap n you can’t tell why it’s even more
frustrating.
Oh God now I feel even worse ha! I don’t think I’ve
swam that far in my entire life

My body lets me down. God dam Fibromyalgia. My mind
is absolutely bursting with creative ideas but it takes me
ages to get up n fed n washed n dressed in the morning,
then maybe a couple of hours working on something
(with lots of breaks, n painkillers n drinks n pain...) and
I’m exhausted. I get so angry with myself and I feel
lonely and isolated but I often can’t get out. If I do
manage to get out I drink to calm my nerves and then I
feel guilty and embarrassed and the next days a write off
cos I’ve shattered myself. It’s like everything’s a major
endurance test. I’m SO lucky to be blessed with the gift
of creativity but so frustrated I feel like a prisoner locked
inside my own body. Sorry for the rant! I hope everyone
else fine and having a better day than me!