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when I have days when I’m not very productive I get
cross with myself and that can bring my depression on. I
have got a lovely flat though with a separate room for
doing my art so things can be good.

14 July 2015 —
I got 1 half of my mind saying I need to do a major
cleaning spree and then my mind will be clearer and able
to focus properly... The other half saying cleaning is just a
form of delay and procrastination and it’ll use up what
tiny scrap of energy I’ve got. It’s a straight up no score
draw at the moment . . . . "On your bike anxiety"....and
depression....and fibro pain....and panic.....in fact, it’s
going to end up looking like one of them Circus Stunt
Bikes with a whole Pyramid of people riding off on it!

15 July 2015 —
The inspiration behind this piece I
love that feeling in the summer
when it’s really hot but there’s a
torrential storm. The hot mist
rising off the pavement after the
rain stops. The pollen is in the air.
The drag onflies in the
reeds....Those are the feelings I
was thinking about when I
painted this. Initially I depicted
the woman’s face emerging from turquoise water, then
added more air born elements like dandelions and
butterflies, all in a white, shimmering haze that blurs the
lines of physical reality into an ethereal mixture of water,
air and mist.