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Life has a way of teaching you,
whether it’s good or bad. You She figured just by sitting in vation, she lost the drive and
can learn from it, accept it and church on Sunday morning to top it all, she thought that
move forward or stay in that and singing in the choir was this relationship would help
sunken place. With either good enough. She still felt with her emptiness. She was
choice, there isn’t always a emptiness and instead of searching for love in all the
clear timeline or final destina- turning right she decided to wrong places and was bro-
tion for how things will turn turn left. Then came the day ken.
out especially when you’re when she met him! It started
trying to handle it on your out as innocent casual talking She was ashamed, angry and
own. to get to know each other. The bitter. She felt trapped in the
casualness slowly turned into sunken place. This time in her
She was twenty-six years old dating, gifts and him saying life felt like an outer body ex-
and knew everything; she had everything that she’d been perience seeing her life in
life all figured out, or so she praying for. shambles. She became angry
thought. Never taking heed of towards God, wondering how
the warning signs, she lived he could let this happen to her.
as if there were no conse- She was weak and contem-
quences to her immature ac- NOTE TO SELF: plated ending her life.
tions. She was living in the
fast lane on a one way to the Whenever we At her breaking point, she
road of darkness. Darkness pray, we must heard three words that made
was a place where she always ask for it seem like for a moment time
thought she was too smart to discernment stood still, “You are pregnant.”
end up. She had it going on! A daily. This can’t be happening! Frus-
college graduate, finishing up trated and angry, selfish
her Master’s degree, new ca- thoughts ran through her
reer, new car, everything was mind, thinking of what she
going just right! She felt un- should do because this wasn’t
stoppable, what could go Although things were moving a part of her plan. In what she
wrong? There was a bit of extremely fast she thought thought was her darkest hour
cockiness. Her Elders tried to that this relationship was was when God finally had her
warn her to be careful and not supposed to happen. The attention. This blessing saved
be fooled by trying to conform warning signs were there but her life; unknowingly to her
to the world.....she thought she thought she could save this was the beginning of find-
she was too smart to get him. In the process of at- ing her peace in the midst of
caught up. tempting to save him, she lost darkness.
herself. She lost her identity
She was raised in the church. of her purpose, she lost moti- It wasn’t until July 2016, the
