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DAY 23: THE MOST HIGH GOD

“Blessed be Abram of God Most High,
Possessor of heaven and earth…”
Genesis 14:19

Perry Requina Testimony

Just scribbling and babbling…

Being told Wilma wouldn’t wake up at all was too
overwhelming and shocking to ingest. Strangely, though, I
feel like it’s only now that I’m slowly recovering from the
shock and re-establishing my bearing. In the last few days, I
was feeling uncharacteristically off. I have been shedding
quite a significant number of tears, fighting through some
persistent negative thoughts, and struggling to sleep through
some restless nights.
I miss my wife. Wilma and I have never been separated this
long since we got married. Feelings of regrets hounded me:
they should have been and could have been what ifs and if I
only could. I was worried about how difficult it would be for
Wilma, me, and the rest of my family if she lay asleep on a
hospital bed for the rest of her life.

I felt disappointed. It seemed as if my prayer for Wilma’s
healing had fallen on deaf ears. I felt confused, not knowing
whether I should pray, “Lord, not my will, but yours be
done,” as Jesus did at Gethsemane, or pray, “Lord, I won’t
let go unless you bless me,” as Jacob did at Bethel.

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