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Chapter Eighteen

especially in front of Mom. And Vian too. For some reason, I fear
that if I stop being strong for even one minute, something dire will
happen. I’m not sure what but I must stay strong to keep this dire
thing NOT happening. That’s the way I have to be.
Today I’m home alone. Mike is at work and Vian is visiting
a friend. I’m listening to Carole King. I just love her “Tapestry”
album. I plant myself by the stereo and lie down on the soft green
shag carpet. I close my eyes and just listen. I feel a deep sadness as
I listen to the words of “So Far Away.”
I can’t help but think of Daddy. If he were only here, he would
help me. I would feel safe with him by my side. I know I wouldn’t
have to worry so much, about the future. About what it might
be like when Mommy’s gone and Vian and I are left alone with
Mike.
The phone rings and I run to answer it. It’s my mother calling
from the hospital. “Honey - it’s Mommy. They’re letting me out
and I need you to come and pick me up. Mike’s out of town so
you’ll have to come and get me.”
“But Mom - I can’t drive by myself.” I am in shock!
“Yes, you can - you’ll be fine.”
“But Mom!” I stammer, scared beyond belief. What is she
thinking?
“Look, Kelita, you’ve been driving me all summer. I just want
to get out of here as soon as I can. I don’t want to have to spend
another minute in this place. You’ll be fine.”
“But I only have my learner’s permit, Mom. I’m only 15! What
if I get caught?” Remember me? That good girl? I don’t break laws.
“You won’t get caught. Stop your worrying and please just
come and get me.” She is getting impatient. I can hear it in her
voice.
“Okay, if you say so, but I really shouldn’t be driving all by
myself.” I am trying to be adamant. It’s not working.

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